Used to, used to

I used to be

This emotional person

This person who writes her little poems

Expressing everything

Every feeling

Talking with people and making them open up about their feelings

Helping them

Which helped me , express more feelings that i was holding in.

But i am telling this in past tense

Because i dont now where she is right now

Hell, where she was these couple of months

I cant say if she’s hiding

Or she’s just lost.

But the thing is i am not trying to find her

I just think about her sometimes .. and these questions pop up..

What would she do in this situation

When i am feeling lost but not wanting to be found

I am here numb more than ever

And i have no idea how i got here..